Mother's Day
Few people know this but Mother's Day is the most hated, feared and depressing holiday there is for me. My mom died in 1986 and I miss her every day of the year but, on Mother's 'Day' it's even worse.
I think of how much less painful my life would have been if she had been a bad mom. If she would have loved me less and not been my biggest 'fan,' I would not miss her like I do. If she wouldn't have heated up towels and wrapped me up in them when I got home from school on cold rainy days, I wouldn't miss her so much. If she wouldn't have brought me a bedside bell to ring when I needed her when I was sick, I wouldn't miss her so much. If she would have just had the compassion to be a truly bad mom, I would never feel this pain on Mother's Day and every other day of the year.
I seem to be making the same mistakes with my daughters that my mom made with me and someday they will suffer like I am now.
What's a mom to do?
posted by mcpease at 10:40 AM
1 Comments:
I'm sorry you have a mom like that. Some people just don't make good parents and I guess they don't find that out until they have already had children.
It must be hard to find a positive way to look at the stuff you've had to go through.
A miscarriage is just heartbreaking and I know you'll be a great mom because you'll know all the things not to do from watching your own mother.
Thanks for reading my blog!
Mary
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