Time ! ? !

I can't imagine that it's been ten days since my last post. I wrote about Mother's Day, blinked and here I am. The sensation of passing time is supposed to change as we get older. As we become more and more familiar with our daily routines, our perception of time passing can be skewed. This is how it is but I don't have to enjoy it.

I'm almost tempted to do something I hate, every day, to try and slow the passage of time. Sitting in the dentist chair for thirty minutes seems like a week, so I could do more of that. Waiting in a doctor's office makes time drag and emergency rooms, even more so. A graduation ceremony can seem like an endless undertaking, especially if the air conditioning isn't working well. So many bad experiences, so little ...oh yeah, that's the point.

Time flying = having fun, time dragging = being miserable....sounds like a plan to me. : )

Mother's Day

Few people know this but Mother's Day is the most hated, feared and depressing holiday there is for me. My mom died in 1986 and I miss her every day of the year but, on Mother's 'Day' it's even worse.

I think of how much less painful my life would have been if she had been a bad mom. If she would have loved me less and not been my biggest 'fan,' I would not miss her like I do. If she wouldn't have heated up towels and wrapped me up in them when I got home from school on cold rainy days, I wouldn't miss her so much. If she wouldn't have brought me a bedside bell to ring when I needed her when I was sick, I wouldn't miss her so much. If she would have just had the compassion to be a truly bad mom, I would never feel this pain on Mother's Day and every other day of the year.

I seem to be making the same mistakes with my daughters that my mom made with me and someday they will suffer like I am now.

What's a mom to do?

Cinco De Mayo

No, I'm not hispanic but who cares? Any day that can be celebrated, I WILL celebrate!

Andale!
Arriba!

Let's all blow off work and head to the beach. We'll have a picnic, swim and watch the amazingly beautiful Sunset. Then, it's off to the club, to dance the Marenge til the 'Cows come home.'

What, huh, oh...ok, I'm awake now.

AARRGGGHH

I'm trying to write a progam in C++ for my class assignment. It has to calculate and amortize a loan payment. This is very hard for me. I'm not crazy about formulas and calculations then add (??ADD??...yikes!) the fact, I'm unfamiliar with the programming language, It's very difficult.

I'd like to spend the day researching websites that have information on doing voice over work. As soon as I tried to do a demo of my voice, my microphone on my laptop stopped working. I have to get to the PC and make a demo but the kids are on the machine all day and my husband is on the machine all night.

I'll work all this out. I just like to write down my silly ass problems so I can be doubly grateful for all the bad things in the world that I am NOT dealing with today.

Voiceovers and Other Careers

I made a decision this morning to try in some way to pursue my desire to use my voice to make some money. Ok, how about investigating doing voiceovers. Sounds like a start. I signed up with a site, ok, this is WAY too easy. Then, I went to a blog that told me about fifty reason why I couldn't possibly break into the voice over business. It spoke of hiring voiceover coaches and investing large amounts of money in the pursuit of a voiceover career.

Ok, I see no reason to let a negative piece of information stop me. Then, at dinner I was reading my Wisdom of the Ages book and read "Deliberately pursue activities in which you have previously shown little or no aptitude. The way out of failure is to face it and laugh at the results rather than be embarrassed or intimidated by earlier outcomes."

So, that brought me back to, "Why not try to do voiceovers?" I can't see what I'd have to lose by at least trying.

I'll graduate in August with a Bachelors of Science in Information Technology so I should have a "day" job if my voiceover work doesn't pan out.